Getting Through This

Getting Through This

I don’t really know how to get there from here.
I just need to know how I can get there.
This is just the hardest thing I have ever had to do.
But I will also need a little help from you.
People try and help but I don’t know which way to go.
And it is so hard not to loose all since of control.
I can’t really help it because this is how I feel.
My pain comes and goes and it is quite real.
Some days will be fine but people tell me I need to move on.
But its so hard when I feel this way because I need to be strong.
I want to keep on going and pretend that I am fine
But inside I’m hurting and that goes on all the time.
When will this end?
I need to know.
I need another type of closure to tell me where he did go.
I want to stop feeling this way
Please help me get out of this feeling I feel today.
Because I need to keep going in a life that doesn’t slow down
I am still hurting inside because he is just not around.
Sometimes I sit and just call out his name
Because in my life it has to keep going even if no one can stop my pain.
I just want my pain to leave its here day after day.
Why won’t it ever leave and when will it go away?
I need to think of other things.
I wanted to say more but could think of anything else to say.
Its not fair that he had to leave me this way.
I want some answers as I look at the sky.
But its too late to go back and no one wants me to know why.
Why did he leave me its not fair
This thing in life is just getting harder and harder for me to bare.
I want to find answers but no one can see.
Why is this thing in life so hard for me?
Denise Rouffaer